My cable went off

Been a while since i visited my page , let alone others. Not sure what i need to write, but i was just glancing through what i wrote months,years back and realised that having this was/is actually the best way to picturize things i did,thoughts i had,and emotions i felt in the past.

Well its been raining today,and the weather is perfect. i managed to work about 6 hours straight without realising i was actually working. good huh? ;)then i decided to get some dinner and watch 'law & order SVU' and at the climax my cable just went off. typical!well so here i am.

Now i guess ill just jump into bed,and am so so looking forwad to it. (ironies of life- cause when i was a kid i would think sleeping is a waste of time, and now i think its probably the best way to spend time) seriously! Not that am some depressed soul that wants to 'not think' and wanted to 'forget' by going to slumber,but i think its just the most magical way to just not be in the present,past or future..and for people to wonder what peace of mind or freedom means well here you have it.

Tangentially, this reminded me that people live everyday upto what they really believe in is 'ideal,' am not sure what my core beliefs are today, but i see blind faith as one of them,and the belief in 'letting go' things you cant control. It is pretty interesting, because once you have faith in anything/anyone, letting go of uncontrollable /controllable situations become easier,and once we do that its really amazing to realize the sense of mental freedom and peace of mind.

But you might argue with me and say these are excuses for those who give up and stop trying. well it just depends, like now i'd like to say 'no',since i need to carve the perception of what this piece was intended to be understood as when/if read. :)